Learning To Say Goodbye

How many times can I say that I love you?
How many times can I wish you were here?
How can it be that you’re no longer with me?
It seems like forever, my dear!

How many times can I hear the phone ring
Wishing to hear your sweet voice?
Oh, if but only, you walked through the door
How, so very much, I’d rejoice!

What I would give to feel your strong arms
Holding me close just once more,
Loving you just for the moment we’d have
With all of my heart, as before.

How many days since you’ve been gone
Has morning arrived with such sorrow;
Knowing that never again will we have
Each other or our tomorrow?

How will I get through the rest of my life
Without all of the love that we shared?
How will my heart go on beating
When it’s broken and can’t be repaired?

How does one get past or through such a pain
Of a loss that’s so deep I can’t hide?
The tears of my sadness continue to fall
I can’t turn them off, though I’ve tried.

How long does it take for the healing to start
Of a life without you here to be
The wonderful man that I married and loved
Who was all of the world to me?

A step at a time I pray and I hope
That one day will come, I’ll be free
Of the past, as it was, to a future that holds
A new life and promise to be…

As full as it can without you by my side,
My heart filled with memories of gold
Tucked in my heart warmly forever
Where they’ll always be to behold.

I’ll carry them close and never let go
Of the best thing in life that I’ve had.
I promise one day I will smile again
And try very hard not to be sad.

There’s lots to remember of happier times;
I just need to accept that you’re gone.
And though it is tough, I know that I must
And will find a way to move on.

I know that you’re close, for so many times
I feel you and hear what you say;
Your words, always a comfort to me,
Even to this very day.

As long as I know that our love is still real
It will give me the strength to do all
That I can to go on without you, my love
Even though I might stumble and fall.

I know you’ll be there, your hand holding on
To mine as you guide me and then
I’ll know that I can move forward once more
To begin living life once again.

Love you, sweetheart, forever and always!